Hey ma awesome web-family,

I know I have been unfaithful! :( :( :( Did not stick to my words but seriously how many more sad faces do y’all need to forgive ;)

Have you ever scolded yourself? Or like told yourself off for something. Like when you’re attempting a conversation, and you succeed to make yourself appear flustered and deluded? And you mentally or physically scold yourself. And then you realise that to an external eye, you are displaying class A symptoms of many mental disorders? Anyway that’s what it feels like when I blog. I’m talking to myself…. Just a word, ages ago I awarded myself the world’s best worst simile/ metaphor/ situation comparison mark maker.

And I have decided to pause my challenge for a bit, but will be resuming it soon. Reason? While I like to think that I am a complex human being, I actually have no good reason for this… Blame youth development guys.

My beautifuls.

When I was in grade six, this group of motivators came over on a regular basis. They were role models who each had jobs they loved, and wanted to inspire us. They did something called the ‘TARDIS Experiment’ (DOCTOR WHO wooooo). ANYHOW I was told to close my eyes, and imagine that I could see the phone box on the street, and as I enter it, I find that it is unoccupied. I accidently fall over and some buttons are pressed. And wham I reach my future, about twenty years ahead. Somewhere along the way, the invisibility cloak from Harry Potter is chucked on me, and I get this Sonic Camera. So I leave the TARDIS and see myself, and take a picture. I return to the TARDIS, return to modern day me, and open my eyes.

So what did I see?

I didn’t take this seriously when I was younger. It was a fun thing; everybody was busy giggling at the accidental fall. I remember writing down that my picture was of me, in a medical centre, taking somebody’s temperature.

What about now? What do I see now?

I could go on and on about my aspirations and where I want to stand one day, but I don’t think that was the point of the experiment. I believe it was to get all us grade six kids to believe that we would end up in the snapshots our Sonic Cameras took. That thought provides the biggest motivation. The idea that ‘this is where I belong, this is what I will do, this is where I want to be’. Looking back, I wish I still had the picture I drew of my snapshot. Because I do believe I will end up there one day. And so should you guys. If you ever do have your moments of doubt, WHICH WE ALL HAVE, don’t let that be the big obstacle. The worst thing in the world I think, is to realise in the future that you let yourself down and stops yourself from getting there.

Seriously, the following four words; we’ve heard an infinite amount of times, but they are boss. Like I’m sure Hugo Boss said this at least once in his life.

Don’t give up, dawg.