System Restart

Hi,

20 days into 2014 and I think it is fair to say that I have abandoned my resolutions COMPLETELY.
I shall backtrack slightly: the first three days were totally cool and I earnestly stuck to my goals. But then in the holidays, with very strong influential persuasive friends, you kinda let yourself think "Ok, PB is healthy so it's totally fine to eat heaps of PB cookies". That situation struck me mercilessly.

Then a week later, after intense "un-resolutionary actions" on my behalf, I wanted to get back on track, but again, a few days later, with the heat wave hitting Melbourne, I succumbed to my laziness and unhealthy habits. 

I have come to realize that I shouldn't really beat myself over the head about this stuff, because it can be fixed. What's done is done. No point in crying over spilt milk. Sort of like this metaphor:

"A psychologist walked around a room while teaching stress management to an audience. As she raised a glass of water, everyone expected they'd be asked the "half empty or half full" question. Instead, with a smile on her face, she inquired: "How heavy is this glass of water?" Answers called out ranged from 8 oz. to 20 oz. She replied, "The absolute weight doesn't matter. It depends on how long I hold it. If I hold it for a minute, it's not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my arm. If I hold it for a day, my arm will feel numb and paralyzed. In each case, the weight of the glass doesn't change, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes." She continued, "The stresses and worries in life are like that glass of water. Think about them for a while and nothing happens. Think about them a bit longer and they begin to hurt. And if you think about them all day long, you will feel paralyzed – incapable of doing anything." It’s important to remember to let go of your stresses. As early in the evening as you can, put all your burdens down. Don't carry them through the evening and into the night. Remember to put the glass down!"

I realize that everything I am doing goes against the nature of the person I aspire to be. Rather than building a strong, healthy body fueled with goodness, I am drowning in pizza, fried nothings and cookies. Rather than carrying on, maintaining this blog, I allow myself to think that there is no point as nobody will be reading it.

Among my other goals, these things I'm doing that are going against the goals are extremely stupid, and it took me until today to accept that I should stop moping about and shoot for the stars. I should learn to take better care of my body, allow social relations to continue and not mentally strain myself to do things. I should not get worked up if I do not have many blog views, but accept that it is a work in progress. And school is in 9ish days so my previous inclinations toward Procrastin8Ville have gotta stop now

So rather than disclaiming my original resolutions, I will commence a modified new start. And this time, I will see it through.

So my confirmed and readjusted goals for the big year (which I wanna maintain for a great time) are (in no particular order)

• Keep a good health: that is be comfortable in my own skin, physically fit and optimum, mentally capable and ready and socially connected.
• Study hard but in short regular intervals: without those cram sessions before a test or whatnot.
• Enhance my spirituality and faith: develop an even better relationship with God, and maintaining my morality.
• Maintaining my diary and my blog; hopefully updating this every Sunday or Friday (AUS EST)
• Taking a photo every week, of something meaningful: and treasuring it as I really want to look back in the future or just be able to feel that every living breathing moment in itself is memorable and worthwhile.

So there they are, out in the open, accessible by anyone. And I will fulfill them or my name is not Zahraa Albander.

I realize, as I hastily proofread, that I have been hella cheesy this post, but gawsh cheese is gooood.

^^that was cheeZy

Before I sign off, I wanna show an image that I found quite inspirational. Czech it out below:

>> OH, and another note is that I encourage commentary. I know this surface isn't great, but feedback is generally always accepted.

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SIGNING OUT, it's your chica,

Z